"Decision"

Look oh Lord into this Heart of mine

Bring up, draw up the dross
make it disintegrate from your light so Divine
Circumstances here sprouted to keep me back
or shoot me forth
if shot, a wound dealt to penetrate the deepest parts.
If not, an eternal season of re-runs, playbacks, and traps
A hurting, yearning of times to come
but told to be left alone
A hope set to only the lord being able to come through and let me know
Oh Lord my prayer on what next to do?
this fight to just plug this one
and make it through
to just run it
My decision on what path to take
set up in this prayer
to make and break what is there
Grab your image and make me the same
work in me no matter what my eyes claim

"Start Anew"

I'll never leave, I'll never run away
because after falling in Love with you
I'll never be the same
I'll never cry, I'll never think, I'll never fight
the same way i did before i came to Christ
Hands stretched out Knees bent by your Grace
Journeys gone about but left with out a trace
I'll never feel, Ill never see, I'll never taste
the same way i did before
seeing the glory of your face
wrapped up consumed by this light of prayers
this faith in Hope that you actually care
For this broken and contrite heart
that lives to be less then alone
But Lord your ways are great and far beyond what i'll ever know
So Thanks Lord, because no matter what happens
My comfort is now in your purpose, your word, your Bible

YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST LORD! ! !

"Praise to you"

Praise to you the God of my life

the one that is due only what is right

All worship and glory to you, my father, saviour

THE ONE I LOOK TO

Many of times your gentle breeze

like a dove descends 

touches the deepest parts of my hands

and leads me in your gentle whispers in the wind

A pleasance of not needing to hear or see

I've got all i need to believe

You the one that gives me the opportunity

to extend my Love across eternity

Abba father your all i need

and all i'll trust and believe

for your magnificence is like the sunrise on the morning dew

Oh lord continue to guide me

in what to do

For lord to you i belong to

All praise, glory, and honor

to you Jesus Christ

The one and only King of my Life

"prayer of my life"

"to seek you in this place, to magnify your name, my purpose now understood, my life the glory of your name, i am your masterpiece chiseled to resemble you, my father my saviour, i'll remain here for you"

"i come to you"

I come to you and you do not resent

a glory, a magnificence, a beauty, My friend

a relationship once loved but loved at a distance

but as a longing to draw near

you spoke to me and said "Come here"

closer and closer

i'm drawn to the magnificence of your grace

A yearn to set my eyes to the sight of your face

and as the shepherd holds his sheep close to his heart

you hold me

the glory of your presence consuming overflowing this vessel to be

every flaw, every hardship, every sorrow, every strife;

all relinquished by the power of your radiant light

Tears wiped away, fears kissed(away) by your grace

and now sprouted new the bloom of diligence, and might, 

a ripened prudence to lead in your life, your purpose, your fight

an Honor beyond all chivalry and loyalty 

a crown, eternal garland of divinity 

A life now set apart as Christ

"Blind but given sight"

to stop and think 

think about the times i once was in

to look back and to see

see the sin that so easily entangled me

How easy it was and joyful at times

to see for an instance something divine

divine in a sense common to man

a place where God's wishes were my own

where a thought brought to living for others

but really living to end up alone

A FLEETING JOY OF MOMENTARY LOVE

Robbed, Taken, Stolen

To exist for the present but reside in the past

To journey across the horizons, pass the sunsets

but to be completely blinded to it's amazing Grasp

a prayer to unlock my eyes

unbreak my heart

unchain my life

so that every ambition, intention, thought becomes Christ

slowly i enter beaten, trampled 

filled with sorrow, pain, and doubt

broken, crawling, groveling 

knees bent by shame

Gates swung open as you proclaim

peace, joy, rest, and trust, back into my life

You lift me up to the place

where you touch gray clouds to make rainbows

The place where i am planted, fed, and can prosper and grow.

PRAISE TO YOU MY SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST :D

"Forgiveness"

Forgiveness now thats a word

a word of power, might, total control

a word hard to believe, hard to bestow

as the walk continues

"Forgive and forget," running constantly through your thoughts

but there against it the grief

caused by the sinners main crutch

a constant duel between spirit and flesh

A longing for the spirit to win so 

that you are not left with regrets

but some how the flesh wins and your left in the same season again

the same battle constantly replayed over and over

Now God's word comes and says

"Forgive um and lead them in comfort,"

but still adversity is near a difficulty to stand firm and adhere

which leads me back to my first statement of forgiveness

a word of Power, Might , Total control

According to God's word

IT'S UP TO YOU WHICH WAY YOU WANT TO GO! ! !

something to think about!

"Run"

a running of doubt and shame

to bring back what was left to claim

a running of love and obedience

a desire to set right what is out of sense

A running to lift up what matters over this life 

which so doesn't 

A running to keep in mind

the body of christ and what is divine

To run forward and to fix our gaze straight forward

to continually strive and move forward

never to slide further but to always get closer

closer to that goal which is

only attained by running forth

though to run may consist

of all that which is above

To continually run forward is what Jesus christ calls "LOVE"

"Fragile Heart"

A heart offered, a heart runned down.

filled with regret, defeat, always wearing a frown

A fragile piece of life, given away in hopes 

to be cherished and loved all of it's days

but the mistake in this, 

is that if fallen into the wrong hands

could result in devastating proportions 

and what once was fragile but whole

will now be broken trampled broken on the floor

so what is left to do but to scrape up what is left

A beautiful crystal like vessel

reflecting what you so strongly regret

little pieces of glass so finely splintered that it's hard to grasp

As you gather what is left and can still be held on to mend

Missing parts despair what is on-hand 

and a discouraged, "There is no HOPE" spirit

rises up to triumph your already weakened fate

You take what is left and give it

to the one who is close to the shattered heart

His name Jesus Christ in which

by his very breathe

takes what left overs you have brought

fills in those empty spots

with the love shown through his cross

and rebuilds that crystal like heart intended for him from the start

but by life's deceitful grasp 

was robbed of what was intended to last

For eternity

but by his Grace and Mercy is given another chance

THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD! ! !

"Run to you"

I go home to find no one there

seems only you care for me

So what's the sense of trying hard to find my dreams

with out you lord to share it with,

tell me Lord how this can be?

I want to run to you

Oh lord i want to run to you

"This is so true"

Psalm 126:3  The Lord hath done great things for us, whereof we are glad.

Some Christians are sadly prone to look on the dark side of everything, and to dwell more upon what they have gone through than upon what God has done for them. Ask for their impression of the Christian life, and they will describe their continual conflicts, their deep afflictions, their sad adversities, and the sinfulness of their hearts, yet with scarcely any allusion to the mercy and help which God has vouchsafed them. But a Christian whose soul is in a healthy state, will come forward joyously, and say, "I will speak, not about myself, but to the honor of my God

"The site of You"

O Lord show me your mercy,

 i'm here again on my knees in wait of your grace

why can't i see

that i am my biggest enemy

O Jesus save me

i quarrel in such a way that i need your touch everyday

chains of guilt torn at the site of your cross 

the weight of my heart now set on above

dram me so i can see into the eyes of love

"Your Beauty"

When you're not near 

the world turns to black and white

when you're around you bring the summers light

an ambiance of color 

radiant and bright

but easy on the eyes 

oh Jesus you are my delight :) 

"Still waiting"

Exiled, banished, spread out

left in captivity by the chains of doubt

lifted to a depth lower then the pit

set in a drought brought by my own wit

increased only to feel lower

to walk 1 step forward to feel 10 steps further

"I know and have your hope and future waiting declares the lord,"

but standing right there

the plot of adversity kept to hinder me forth

A PRAYER OF YEARNING

wailed for that luxury to know

before hardship determines what my future story beholds

PLEASE HEAR MY CRY LORD! ! ! 

"I Know"

I know, I know, I know

I know yet i do not obey

I know yet i do not abstain

I keep on going like the simple

and suffer for my wrong

I know, I know yet eventually i will fall

at chance after chance

i still continue on

spiraling down in to what is far and beyond

at wrong after wrong 

i remain on my slide

I know, I know but can't cast off my pride

I've come to see this revolving door in which i hardly see

but experience more and more

I know, I know yet i still do not DO

i replay and replay

but i know how to get through. 

My Life as of now

Life what is life? 

is it to live till your hearts content 

to prosper and to excel your self into the depths of the sea.

You see and this is what i notice, 

what interest me is the fact that life isn't the life you think it should be.

It's filled with ups and downs all around failures,  disappointment after disappointment, confusion after confusion 

you see life is suffering divinely woven in time to bring about 

heart break stoking a passion this pain bringing you ever more

to want to leave this world in every single way.

You see this is my life an epic little story lived every second of the day,

every moment woken, the weight of sorrow rested upon my soul.

you see and what i have come to know 

is my life is a life i have no control.

In itself, a life encouraged for this journey to end and the next to begin

a longing to get out to run away to disappear from this life I'm in.

You see my life caused a chain shackled to my hearts desires

holding, suppressing it, causing it to dwell in fire

But what is life?

is this my life?

What am i to do?

am i to cease from this journey, this pattern from day to day?

for i honestly wait for my almighty god to show me the way.

But when?

oh what to do?

what to do? 

maybe my friends? No!

maybe my parents? No!

maybe my aunties, my uncles, my cousins, my doctor, my teacher, a physic, a shrink? No!

You know what i'll check God's word, just to try it out.

To see what life's true meaning is suppose to be about.

As time goes on as the days pass by.

I come to realize my hearts cry

This life i long for

his life i wanted to seek 

a life built through suffering and turning the other cheek

This life i live a test of maturity

to be tested by sin, by heartbreak, by sorrow, 

by disappointment after disappointment, by confusion after confusion, 

by this life which is built for me to dwell in

For i found in his word 

" no one can close what he opens and no one can open what he close."

I am to wait patiently and endure till my God comes through

What i can't see and don't understand is 

why isn't any one else going through what im goin through?

but here is what i conclude and the end of this jam

I don't know what it is or to the extent of my suffer

but i still believe and am encouraged in Hope

that my God will make everything better and be my comfort

I just gotta wait a little more! ! !

" This Love"

This Love, this passion, a burning flame  shut up with in my heart

a yearning to set my life apart.

This Love, so beautiful,

waiting, hoping, praying you'll take me in, to feel your presence,

to dwell in your eyes as a glistening light.

This Love, a constant struggle

a new battle set and declared every second of the day.

This love, filled with confusion and deceit, 

a life of "IDK" and "If this is your will Lord."

This Love a little kindle of the Fire place

at times a life filled with disgrace

a love worth being persecuted and scourged for

This Love, so divine, people spend their whole lives looking for.

This Love, Love an intense feeling of deep affection

a shackle chained to the heart built through progression.

Progression in deeds, grace and fruit, and consistency in character

This Love, built on living even though the other thinks

it doesn't matter

This Love, a guiding light to get your feet back on track

Ahh this Love no one should miss

some, majority, will compromise f

or what their deceived little minds think love is.

and most of the time will run for less then what they are given.

BUT WHO CAN BLAME THEM ALL THEY DO IS FOLLOW THIER HEARTS

Which in God's word 

is the deceiver, the main weapon used by the master of the art.

Ohh the heart, that's a topic for a whole other poem

but back to this Love

on which one laid his life down for us all,

did absolutely nothing wrong

yet still took the fall.

This Love, i know of and got set up with in my mind,

i long for the day it genuinely rests in my heart

and my life becomes

"God's glory defined."

This Love the only love that matters :)

"A penny"

If i had a penny for every time i thought about you 

i would be two cents richer 

see you want to know why 

and here is the plain truth

there's just two times i think about you

Day and night you run through my mind 

through and through 

cause all i want to do is just be with you.

You see if i really did get a penny for every time i thought about you

Two cents richer would come to me as empty

because thats just what it would be two cents richer with out you. 

you see even if it came as two hundred, two thousand, two million a thought, 

it still wouldn't matter cause that's all i would have got.

Some may say you are a fool and 

" Man just get over it, your just dumbstruck by this thing called love."

but that's just it and this poem comes to a close

the main point of this series is

"God is Love"